If there’s one thing in life I don’t like…it’s the fact you aren’t here by my side. Some days are like I really need you then there are other days where I want you here. There events that I needed you here for like my high school graduation and my first day of college…I wanted you to be there. I bet you had a VIP seat but it’s not the same as if you were there…The next event I need you is the most important to a father which is meeting the fiancé…who is gonna get there shot gun ready and say, “Where’s the sucker?” Then the next thing I know, you and my fiancé are having beers and watching soccer. Then after endless planning for my dream wedding, you’ll walk me down the aisle and whisper to my fiancé who you initially didn’t like and say, “Take care of my little girl.” Then years later, I’d have your grandchildren by my side with my husband. What? Is this selfish of me to say but I wish you weren’t such a goddamn addict?! You could have witnessed this happened but you literally killed yourself and left me with mommy which wasn’t enough. Could you have at least thought of me before you left this world?